I know it's been a while since I have blogged and it isn't because I haven't thought about it. I've just felt like I have been in this rut and my mind wanted to blog but I couldn't get my fingers to do it, or vice versa. So recently after thinking about it and the way I have been feeling for the past few months, it occured to me that I am in a bit of a depression. Not a major one but one that is enough to stop me from doing what I want to do and enjoy doing. I've been depressed before to know the symptoms but it took me a while to get to realize what this is: Functioning Depression (well, this is what I call it anyway).
Even now it is a little difficult to write this, to sort out what I want to say. But a week ago I decided that enough was enough and I was going to start blogging again beginning Feb 1, the onset of a brand new month. I'm tired of feeling depressed and I don't want to be depressed. That being said, I'm going to work on it without having to resort to meds, though I could probably use some therapy (though, who couldn't once in a while?) Of course depression isn't something you can just make yourself get over just like that, but I think I can at least try to take steps to get to the point where I am feeling better and more like myself and more like doing the things I like to do. And if not, then there is always Prozac. :-)
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