I Believe In God

Now as most know, I am not what one would call an overly religious person.  However, being raised by a Pentacostal preacher from the time I was 10 or so (which is when my dad got religion), I still do believe in all the things I was taught:

I believe there IS God.

I believe in Heaven.

I also believe there is Satan.

I also believe there is a Hell.

And I believe that a person is going to one or the other. 

When something bad happens, you always hear people say  "Why did God do that? ", or "If there really is a God, how can that happen?"  And people blame God for whatever the incident was.  I do believe that God lets things happen, maybe to see what faith the person has or how they handle it.  Who can really say?  However,  I also believe that Satan, who is quite the adversary, and very powerful himself, makes all kinds of evil in this world, and he should be getting the blame instead of God.  But for some reason, people are quick to blame God first, and you never even hear them say anything about the devil. 

Which brings to mind a quote that a friend of mine said on Facebook the other day, and I was like Bingo! That makes so much sense!  I don't know if he made it up or if it's a quote by someone else, but this was how it went:

"The greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn't exist."

 

I just love this quote because it is so true.  Again, when something horrible happens, you never hear people blame Satan.  No, it's somehow always God's fault.  Even a lot of Christians will blame God for bad things, and somehow forget how powerful Satan can be, and try to shake your trust in the Lord. 

 

I will say that even after Nicole's accident, I never, ever, ever even thought about blaming God.  Do I think Satan had a hand in it?  Oh yes, definitely.  But God had nothing to do with it.  And He has had nothing to do with anything bad that's happened in my life either.  Have I ever questioned Him about them?  Sometimes, but more like, why?  But of course the answer is simple: Satan.  Trying to shake me up, make me not believe. 

 

But I've got news for him.   I may not go to church often,  or pray a lot, but I do have faith in God.  And the devil is NEVER going to change that.

 

BECAUSE I BELIEVE IN GOD.

 

 

 

 

The Empty Bucket List

I keep hearing the term "Bucket List", i.e. things you want to do before you die.  The problem (if one could call it a problem) with my particular bucket list is, it's empty.  Completely, totally empty.  Is that sad?  I don't know. 

Because on the one hand, what difference does it make if you get to do all these things as once you're dead, you're dead, and  you're sure not going to remember doing them.  (hmmmm.....I sound a little like Debbie Downer here......)  But on the other hand, they would be enjoyable (I assume) while you are alive and you get to have the satisfaction that you got to do them.

I keep thinking I should have one, that there should be definite things I really want to do.  Yet, I can't think of anything I have always wanted to do but haven't yet.  It isn't because I have lead such an exciting life that I've done it all, because that certainly isn't the case by any means.  And it isn't because my life is so full and complicated that I don't have time to think of what I'd like to do.

 I  think maybe it partly has to do with having no passion for anything in particular. You know how some people have a passion for art or music or sports or running or whatever;  I just don't have that.  I wish I did.....I'd like to have something I just love to do and be passionate about (Starbucks doesn't count. lol).  That isn't to say I don't enjoy anything, because I do, like scrapbooking and reading  and writing  (when I don't have brain farts that stop me from putting my words down),  and photography.  But to do them, I have to be in the mood otherwise it just doesn't work.  And I think people who are passionate about something love doing it pretty much no matter what. (Since I am not like that, I am just guessing here.)

Or maybe it has to do with a zeal for life and wanting to do it all. However,  I've never been one to want to do it all, or travel all over the place, though I do find myself, as I get older, wanting to go see a couple of places I never wanted to before, such as Paris and Gaudi in Spain.  And I would really love to go to the Bahamas and get pink sand from Bermuda.  So I suppose it's those kind of things that start bucket lists for people.

Then again, I could always have Don't Make a Bucket List in my Bucket List.

What's on YOUR Bucket List?


 

My (Sorta) Jumbled-Up Mind

I want to blog. I do.  However, when I sit down in front of my computer and bring up my blog and the space to write, I sit here and stare at it, with all these thoughts floating through my mind, but when I go to actually type them,  something just shuts down and I stop.  When I do try, the words don't come out the way I want them too and I delete them.   I have ideas to blog and I even have a list I add to when something comes to mind to talk about.  But apparently not the words to express them.  Even now, as I type this, I stop and re-read and think that isn't how I want to say what it is I'm really thinking and I go back and delete and re-write.  And still it isn't what I have in my mind to say.

Maybe it's writer's block? Maybe it's depression?  Maybe it's the setting where I'm doing the writing? Maybe because I'm really just talking to myself here?   Maybe it's just my fingers don't want to do it?  Because it's like my mind wants to but  the thoughts don't make it all the way down to my fingertips to be able to type the words. 

Whatever it is, it is frustrating.  Because most of the time writing is fun for me and I like talking about different things and I guess just getting my opinion "out there", even if no one is reading it. 

So.  I'm gonna post this one even if it is short and all about not much. But better than nuthin, ya know?