Night

I am really starting to hate night time.  With all that is going on with Mom, night is the worst time for me. Daytime is okay, but once 9:00pm hits, I start feeling anxious and sick to my stomach. And trying to sleep is a whole nother thing. I stay up until 1 or 2, turn out the lights and stay in my rocking chair until I fall asleep in it, and when I wake up a little bit later then I go to bed, figuring I should be able to right to sleep in my bed.

But, my brain has other plans. It wakes right up and I start thinking again. And even when I do finally fall asleep, it isn't a sound sleep and then I am up at 9 or 10.

I'm a little worried what is going to happen once Mom goes and I am here all by myself at night. Not looking forward to that at all...even thinking about it now makes me feel ill and want to cry.

This just really sucks.