I Hate Having a Stuffy Nose!!

No, really. Hate. H-A-T-E.

Forever

I never had texts but I did have emails. And I will remember these things forever. 

A Snowy Weekend

This past weekend we had a blizzard and ended up with probably about 2 feet of snow.  I like snow when we have electricity and fortunately, our electricity held out the whole weekend. Yay!! The only downfall was being trapped in the house almost 4 days but even that came to an end also. But in the mean time, of course I took plenty of pictures.

This was the Friday evening, and even though it was in color, it looks like I took it in black and white.

 

By Saturday I think poor Bob has a little cabin fever. He looks pretty bored.

 Trying to ignore me taking a picture of them. They seem to know what I am doing.

 Thinking I'll stop harassing them, they finally look up at me to get it over with. But aren't they adorable?

 

On Sunday, it wasn't even that cold and it was very pretty out.

Had to take pictures of the pets, who were confused with all the white stuff.  RabbitButt ran outside like she thought it was cool until she saw what she had to deal with.

 Poor Bob had to use the bathroom and just didn't know where to go.

 CaliGirl was like, geez this stuff is cold! But she did have fun playing in it.

 

By Monday I was ready for Starbucks so we went outside to dig ourselves out. Hector had parked the Durango close to the end of the driveway but unfortunately not close enough so even that small amount was a lot to dig out because of so much snow. 

 I helped too even though it looks like just the guys were doing it.

 Aha! I can see the front of the Durango!

 

Alright!! Done!

 

And we are free and on our way!

 Paradise is in sight!

 Finally! All is right in the world.

Coming Home

Just as I predicted, the trip home was less than fun and I was so happy to get out of that car after almost 4 days of being stuck in there with him.  A lot of complaining, a huge fight in the middle of the Ozarks that almost led to me leaving him there to find his own way home, etc. Not a trip I would want to repeat for sure. But here are a few pics:

In Arizona somewhere:

Albuquerque, NM:

 

Oklahoma:

Memphis, TN:

 I was so glad to see this sign finally, even if we had driven all night and it was 5:30 in the morning! :

 

And then CaliGirl and Bob-the-Bulldog finally got to meet and became friends:

 

I knew I was home for sure though when I picked up Sean Michael from school and:

 

Yeah.





I took Tuesday and Wednesday off to rest up and went to work on Thursday where a lot of people seemed happy to see me and welcomed me back, some even with hugs. That was pretty nice.

Because a snow storm was about to hit on Friday, (though usually I never believe it until I actually see snow coming down), the commissary was crazy busy, like people thinking we are going to be snowed in for a month or something. Hector only went because we actually just truly needed groceries, but he took pictures of the shelves:

Then yesterday we really did  get a blizzard so no work (yay!) and which has continued to today, with lots and lots of snow.  I don't mind all the snow unless our electricity goes out which so far has not, thank God. 

 

With that much snow poor Bob doesn't know where to go to use the potty. We had to dig out a space for him in front of the garage so that we just have to open the garage doors and he can go out on his leash. Fun fun.

 

Am I glad to be home? Yes and no.  I miss California and my mom's house and my mom, but on the other hand I have been finally able to get some sleep here too.  I suppose once I get back into the daily routine, things will return to normal and I won't feel as restless. Here's hoping anyway.

Tomorrow

We will be on our way home.

Don't know how I feel about that.

This Is So Me

If only. lol

Already

I knew this wasn't gonna be fun.

Uh Oh....

Note to self: Don't tell someone something they don't want to hear even when they really need to hear it.

I said something to someone tonight on the phone that I really felt needed said and that person did not appreciate and got off the phone right then.  While I am sorry they feel that way and that I hope it did not cost me the friendship, I still feel it needed to be said and hopefully they will at least think about it.  And I am willing to bet that this person's friends feel the same way I do but just don't want to say anything.

Are we all perfect? Of course not. Do we all complain about things and aren't able or don't want to change them? Of course. But when it is the same thing for 7 years, then yes, something needs to be said. I don't understand after that amount of time it is something you can't get over, and if you can't, it is because you really just don't want to. I don't want this to come across meanly, but as a friend I just felt like it is enough.

I guess we'll see.  I am sorry I hurt feelings, but I'm not sorry I said it.

A Few More Days

In about 5 more days I will be going home to Virginia.

 I'm not sure how I feel about it really, because part of me wants to stay here and part of me wants to go home.  The thing is though I don't really miss home except for Sean Michael and my cat Rabbit, and Vickie and Tonda.  But otherwise I don't miss anything or anyone, and I just want a change in my life.

Of course I don't know what I would do if I stayed here, though I have way more friends here than I do at home so I don't think I would get lonely.  But I would need a job first and really I don't want to give up my government job until I'm 62, so home I will be going.

I did decide though that I am going to keep Mom's house, at least for now, because I just don't feel like I am ready to give it up. I do hate having to pay the rent on it, but I suppose that is just the way it goes.  I don't know if I am going to keep the house forever or just for a while or what.  Maybe until Van turns 62 and can afford it himself when he gets social security.  I just don't know except I am not ready to say goodbye to it, or California, yet. And giving it up feels so final, so  over, so like Mom is really really gone, which I know she is but it is hard to let go of her. I miss her even though she could annoy the heck out of me.  I just feel so sad and I know that is to be expected and will eventually get easier (I hope anyway). At any rate, I am very conflicted about things and have a hard time making any kind of decisions, except that keeping the mobile home feels right.

I wish life would get easier instead of harder.

New Years

I don't know why I forgot to post these...

Happy New Year

Here's to a much better year than 2015 was.